Rest in Him

"Rest in Me. Seek this evening time just to be with Me. Do not feel you have failed if sometimes I ask you only to rest together in My Presence. I am with you, much with you both, not only at these times-at all times. Feel conscious of My Presence. Earth has no greater joy than that."

That was part of my devotion today and as always, it was not mistake. Last night we went to dinner with W's dad before he left town and i was feeling dizzy and "off" so we went home and I went to bed early. Today I realized I didn't feel Willow move last night and so I was more aware of it today. As the day went on, it went from the back of my mind to the center of my attention. At about 2:30 or so I decided to try the things that always make her kick. I stretched out on the massage table in the back, bent over, poked and prodded and absolutely nothing. I felt the panic start to creep in and texted my sister. She suggested a few things and after I tried that and W got done with his client, I told him what was happening. He was so calm and assured me everything was fine but after he tried talking to her, and moving her, he went ahead and called the nurses at the Dr's office. When they called back, i explained everything and they said I definitely needed to come in to check everything out. It felt sooo bad b/c another client was on the table for their appt but like all of our clients, she was soooo sweet and understanding and was so encouraging. We got there and there was a loooong list ahead of us and it was sooo hard sitting in the waiting room with all the other mommies-to-be and even a newborn b/c I was imagining the worst but W was soo wonderful and comforting. I was a mess, crying and trying to stay calm but i was so scared. He asked me if i wanted him to pray and I said no (was too emotional) but he did anyway and I am soo glad. Of course I was praying the whole time but to hear the words outloud I though would be too much. They ended up moving us to the top of the list and we got in the ultrasound room and the tech was sooo sweet. As soon as she put it on my belly, W started jumping up and down and hugging/kissing me b/c we saw that unmistakable flutter of her perfect heartbeat. Tears were pouring and i was just so overcome with gratitude of God's faithfulness. She had flipped since Monday (our last appt) and so her face was facing my spine and she has her legs straight up in front of her face, so any movement would be on the back and it's hard to feel that. W said she was getting us back for the April Fools joke he played everyone, telling them "she" was a "he" now. I saw another Dr and she said everything was perfect, just ANOTHER U.T.I but I'll take that anyday. I've just known too many people that have gone through tragedies and I couldn't ignore the feeling that something might be wrong. The doctor said I did the right thing and was being a good mommy :) SOSO scary but just another reminder not to take a second of a healthy pregnancy for granted.
When we got back to the office i asked W if he wanted me to take the trash out and he said NO, you are on light duty...you can't even look at anything heavy. So I closed my eyes...har har. ;)

I will post soon about our fun easter weekend but wanted to remind everyone to rest in Him. No matter what.
xoxo