Revelation

So i wanted to go ahead and get this down while it was still fresh but it will probably be more like rambling b/c I have so many thoughts. In church, we've been going through a sermon series on Heaven. Before the message even started we were singing "Revelation Song", Kari Jobe sings it. I had an aha moment. In it, there is a lyric "with all creation I sing, praise to the King of Kings". W has always told me that when he is in the woods, it's a worship experience for him in a different way. I never really understood but I thought it was nice that he could see it like that. Then it hit me, WHAT is creation? I started going through all the days of creation and I pictured all of the trees, the leaves that have fallen to the ground, the little bugs on the trees, EVERYTHING. Creation PRAISES God and to me among all of creation worshiping God seems like a little bit of Heaven to me and I finally got what W was talking about!
Then our pastor was talking about what he believes we will do in Heaven and he believes we will be able to ask questions. All the "why" questions we have on earth....why did you let this happen to me or why did you do things this way. And that he believes that God's response to us will make us so incredibly humbled because God has a PERFECT plan and reason for doing everything...whether to teach us something or to keep us from something else harmful and that we will feel that overwhelming sense of appreciated to even be called sons of daughters of Him. That really really hit me hard b/c I've been having a struggle lately with Satan and him trying to feed lies to me and I was telling W at lunch that I felt such a release in church, as if I had built a dam inside myself and it was set free and I felt somewhat of a rush going through me and felt so renewed and light. He said he had experienced the same thing. We were talking about the river of life and every time I have felt that overwhelming sense of Gods power in me, if feels like a rush of water going through me and we both picture that River of Life flowing through us and giving is a renewed life.
Also, we were singing "Worthy Is The Lamb" and just had that stirring in my heart and uplifted feeling and our campus pastor was talking about how worshipping affects you but I wonder when that starts happening. I don't remember that happening when I was 6 (the age I was saved) but as I've mentally matured, I remember feeling it. So it made me wonder about things like, does my 5 year old nephew experience that? I was asking W what he thought and he feels like you have to go through certain things and emotions in life to realize how unworthy you are and then it's like you're filled with gratitude to be worshiping God and His Spirit fills you up. It made sense b/c as I've matured both emotionally and spiritually, I am able to have a better understanding and appreciation of going before God and worshiping Him!

My mom and I went to Pensacola this past weekend for my nephew Berkeley's 4 year old graduation and at dinner, my brother and mom were talking about all these stories from the Bible but they were talking about the people as if they were real and relatable. Um, they are but I have never ever studied the Old Testament in a way that excites me or makes me want to learn about each person and why they were chosen and what they came from and what they were used for. But my brother, being a History major and a teacher has this way of talking about it as if I'm watching E News or something. I was so fascinated but also embarrassed b/c I had nothing to contribute. Yeah, I've read about Moses and Ezra and Joseph but they've never been real to me. It really challenged me to study the Old Testament like that. So I'm gonna :)

I think that's all from that but I wanted to write it so that I can go back later and look at it.

This weekend was SO much fun! My mom and I have never done that before...traveled just the two of us and we had a blast. She is sooo stinkin funny and we laughed the whole time. It was soooo good to see my brother and Berk!! We stayed at a hotel that night and had breakfast with Kevin Sat and drove back. We of course made a pitstop in Hattiesburg for Forever 21 :)

Yesterday was sooo much fun being with W all day. We got a lot done but I am taking the affternoon off of work to get the house in order for KRISTI TO GET HERE!!!! They are driving to my brothers tonight and the rest of the way tomorrow. Her good friend, Crista is also coming with her little boy, Kasen and they are staying with us. Yay! So I gotta get to cleaning!!

xoxo